Missing my baby

I am all alone in our Laguna house, very tired from the full day's work. I wanted to sleep but i cant. Jea is in my mind, although I just saw her this morning and I'll see her by tomorrow afternoon, I still miss her so much. Its really hard sleeping without her by my side. I can already imagine tomorrow as I wake up, I will not see her angelic face beside mine, or I may over sleep since she will not be there to wake me up. This really sucks!!! I really cant stand not having her around. I miss her so much that I imagine her talking to me. Saying all the cute stuff she would say when she sees anything interesting. She would say "mommy cat" or "big dog, big dog" or "tita jing's house?". Before she sleeps she would ask me to lie down beside her, and she will only take her bottle if I was the one giving it to her. She would say "ayaw!" when yaya hands it over. Then when she's sleepy already, she will ask "mommy? baby pooh?" her pillow. Then she will point to my pillow and say "mommy! big pooh". When she finished her milk she would say "no more.... mommy, hawak" and she hands the empty bottle to me. Then hugs me and close her eyes. I, on the other hand would say "Mommy.. love you.. nytnyt baby!" Then she will say, "mommy, darling.." asking me to sing the lullaby..

I miss you so much baby!!!! "love you! nyt nyt!"

sleep my darling jea..
jea, will go to sleep..
sleep my darling jea..
jea, will go to sleep..
sleep na and baby ko..
sleep my darling jea..
sleep my darling jea..
jea will go to sleep

Turning 2: Birthday Blues

Jea's turning 2 on thursday June 7, 2007.... up until now I still dont know how we will celebrate it.

• Option 1 is to just have a family dinner with the immediate family and go to the Big Red Barn for some treats and tricks. Ive heard that its like a giant play pen with rides, mascots and lots of treats for kids.
• Option 2 is to spend a simply and leisurely vacation with the family maybe in Canyon woods or just check-in in a hotel somewhere. No food preparations, no games and most importantly no mess. we can just go swimming so that jea can enjoy.
• Option 3 to have a simple birthday party at home, simple food, simple games, simple preparations. The operative word being SIMPLE.
• Option 4 to have a birthday party in a fastfood chain maybe in Mcdo or Jollibee. No worries we will just show up and the party will start.

After all the contemplating, I ended up setting a Simple Home Party on the 7th for the Espino Clan and a McDonalds Kiddie Party on June 10 with Valerio Family. Its really hard to please everybody......

But if I were to choose I'd rather go with Option 1 - Its Jea's birthday anyway, if there is somebody who should be pleased and happy it would be her. This is the best option that I know she will have lots of fun and lasting memories.

Cute routines

When she wants to drink milk:

1. Ask "mommy me-melk?"
2. If I didnt respond she would say "Ate me-melk?", "Mama me-melk?" and so on
3. She will say that over and over and over again "mommy me-melk" until the bottle is in her hand.
4. As soon as she gets the milk she will say "Mommy... ga... higa" asking me to lay down beside her.
5. She then scratches her hears until she goes to sleep.

Sometimes she would ask for pooh first, her pillow or sometimes she would ask for a 2nd or a 3rd bottle.

When she wakes up in the morning:

As soon as she wakes up she will wake up everybody beside her, most of the time that me and mama.... and as we open our eyes she will have that bright smile on her face and say "eat rice!!" she's hungry and asks us to cook breakfast.

As she stands up and kiss us, she would say "Papa" "up", pertaining to papa and that she will go and wake him up. with the 2nd call "Come, mommy" "papa...up" climbs up the stairs with the very wide grin on her face and knocks on papa's door. She would say...papa....knock..knock... papa..knock..knock... as her opens the door,, she would scream "papa"...

We then goes down and as we set the table, she will make a cup of coffee for papa. Getting a teaspoon of coffee, milk and sugar (of course being guided by papa) then stir it all together. After breakfast she will automatically get Papa's vitamins and get 1 capsule. Put it in her hands and turn it arounf and around.. as if doing magic, then pass it to her other hand. Most of the time she would drop it and just laugh. After that its her turn to take her vitamins and she will take it both without hesitation.

Bath Time

She knows this by heart, i dont even know how she knows what time is it but by exactly 8:30 am she would go to me and say "ligo...ligo"...."bath...bath" while scrubing her head. No matter what, we have to go and take a bath, this is the one thing that i cant her out to wait just a little, coz sometimes or most of the time im in a middle of something when she calls for bath. She will pull your hands to go up the stairs.. sometimes she even gets her towel and dress just for me to follow her. She really loves the water, she loves bathing and swimming.

Additional Secret Codes and Translations

Here are a few more of her secret codes:


pop-pop = laptop
inan = unan
akdo = Mcdo
mok = gamot (pertaining to her rash ointment)
yuck = truck
ko-kok = chicken (from ko-ko-ro-kok)
pa-pers = diapers

I will not list down other words that she knows, basically she can say every word she hears.

Keeping Promises

The whole family went to go shopping to Greenhills, and on our way there I told Jea that we are going to go shopping and mommy will buy her shoes. We arrived very late, around 7:30 pm, and we used another 15 mins to park our car. When we get in, we went straight to the cellphones area coz mama has to buy one. I, on the other hand had my cellphone repaired. In short we all forgot about jea's shoes until the store closed down. We went home as usual, not thinking that jea( she was just 1 and 1/2 yrs old then) was contemplating about the shoes that I promised her.

On our way home, we noticed that she kept herself awake but very quite, very unsual for her. Most of the time she would be asleep at that time of the night and most especially while riding a car. But she didnt sleep, kept herself awake until we get home.

As soon as we got home, as I put her down on the sofa she looked at me and said

Wa?! Shoes?!...
Wa?! Shoes?!...

With a very demanding tone. She was looking for the shoes that I promised her, that's the time that I learned that she REALLY listens, she really listen and understood everything that I tell her. She was asking why I didnt keep my promise. I was very guilty and at the same time proud. Guilty because I didnt kept my word and proud because at that very young age she knows how to listen, she understood, and most importantly she knows that every promise has to be kept.

The next morning, we went back to greenhills and bought her shoes, and a bonus new toy . This is a lesson for me. I have to keep my promises or I'll go broke.

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