" I Love You, Dalawa!"

I came home a little late that day because I went out to coffee with Owie. I got home at around 8pm. Jea is extra sweet to me. She got smiles up to her ears when she saw me. I brought some trinkets for her, a bracelet, some hairclips and toothbrush. Mama said shes been asking for me since she got home. Its so nice to see Jea like that. She asked and asked where I have been. Once in a while she would go to my back and hug me from behind. She also kissed me a lot. We played for a little while then she asked for us to go to sleep. As we lay down, I toold her that I love her ans she replied "love you mommy!". Then I said "Goodnigt baby" and she replied "Goodnight mommy!" She would often glimpse at me and just smiled, somtimes waving her hands. Then again I said, "Love you baby!" she'll reply "love you mommy!" then I'll reply "love you too baby". Then she will close her eyes and try sleep.

At around 2am, she woke up asking me for milk. When I gave it to her I said, "good night baby! Love you! then she answered "love you, dalawa!" I said "love you too" she again said "love you , dalawa"

While you were sleeping

There is some serenity in watching you sleep. This is one of the habits that i've developed since you came in to my life. I remember the very first night that we are together. This was our first night home, I think you were about 3 days old then. Everybody was sleeping already, but I stared at you all night. I was overwhelmed with so much live for you, the first time I ever felt, that I cant even bare to sleep. I was too afraid to lose you. I stayed up all night to watch you sleep, holding your chest once in a while to check if your still breathing. Call me paranoid, but I have so much love overflowing that I dont even want to close my eyes for a second. Because that single second is one second now seeing you.

Years has passed and your turning three in a few months, but I still watch you sleep. Not so much because of paranoia, but I just love that feeling of security, of calmness, of blessings to have you with me. Even if sometimes I wasnt the one to put you to bed, just putting you beside me and looking at you so peacfully gives me warmth.

There is so much joy in watching you sleep. The sense of accomplishment that we just finished our day. Knowing that as you sleep by my side also simbolizes you being with me, by my side my whole life, that I will never be alone again. That eagerness for me to see you wake up the next morning, either waking me up, or simply smiling.
Those are the treasures I hold on to, everytime I look at you.