Im losing the game

OMG! Im losing this game, I never thought I would. I am slowly sliding down, I really don't want to fall. I can't, it is not an option. This will just make my life far more complicated than it really is. I don't want care too much, in fact I don't want care at all. I thought it was just a game, a game that I can manipulate. It surprised me that am the one being manipulated. I am scared to death on what will become of me. I cannot let this happen to me again. I maybe just over reacting, but I am really scared. I cannot help it, I thought I am stronger than this.