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Wednesday, July 23, 2008

Time to start

I got slight fever last night and because of this im not eating as much as I always do. And I stumbled on Lizziness while blog hopping, and I read some of her diet goal plans. Suddenly, I got inspired to go on a diet as well. I gained about 60lbs from the time before I had my daughter. My normal weight should be around 135lbs since I’m tall. I believe im now about 180lbs++ , don’t know exactly since I haven’t weighed myself in years. Actually I didn’t gain weight when I was pregnant, in fact I actually lose about 20lbs for the first 7months. I only weighed around 140lbs when I gave birth, that’s already including the baby, and all the other slimy thingy in my tummy with the baby.

Before I got pregenant, im actually on the heavy side already, at least for my standards at that time. Since I was ramp modeling back in the olden days, I’m used to weighing about 100lbs for my 5”8” height. So by calculations, you can already see that I’m underweight. Going up at 120lbs is already fat for me at that time. Then, I focused on my studies, quit modeling. Then focused on my thesis, quit sports and exercise. Then I focused on my board exam, quit diet, exercise all together. So, after all those things, without even noticing I’m already 130lbs, still not bad. In fact its, ideal for my height.

Then I fell in love, got pregnant, lost my boyfriend, lost my job, lost my friends, got depressed, got paranoid, got lazy, got angry, got all the problems in the world. And who was there to keep me sane? Other than my family, my beautiful baby and some new friends, Ice Cream was there for me. I got a job in a shopping mall as a mall architect. With all the bad food very accessible to me, I didn’t other to stop, ate, ice cream almost everyday of my life, all the other delicious food just right in front of me everyday.

So there, I gained 50lbs, while working in that mall. 50lbs in 1 year. Then I left the mall, got another job, then another, then, another. I didn’t lose the weight, just kept on gaining some more.
Now, I’d like to be fit for so many reasons…

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

Wordless Wednesday #9

Where is Home?

Yesterday, it was Kristo’s (Owie’s kid) turn to throw tantrums and cry. Usually its Jea who always cry in the morning as we drop the kids to school. But this time, Jea was behaved while Kristo was the one who is crying his hearts out. Owie had to stay and call Vic to come to school just to calm Kristo. When I got back around lunch time, to have lunch with Jea, she told me that Kristo was crying because “Pagod ago, dami bahay, dapat si mommy, daddy and lola isang house lang “ I’m tired, we have so many houses, Mommy , daddy and lola should stay in one house only. Apparently, he got tired of going to and fro mommy’s house and daddy’s house.

In my mind, im still lucky that Jea doesn’t have to go through the same situation. She will not get tired, she doesn’t have a mommy’s house and a daddy’s house. All she have is one home, Mommy’s. She will not get confused which house to go home to. Which parent treats her better. Since she never get to see her father, it’s a little simpler that way.

I would love her to know her father, even if everybody else thinks otherwise. For me, I still cant a father’s love, even if I give my all. It has to come from her father. But that is just a dream, I must admit that I long dreamed for her to play with her father. To be carried on his back, to be held in a ride or simply to by cuddled by him. Forget all about me, all I want is for her to experience all the love she can get. From me, my family , daddy and his family.

Ever since this happened to me, that’s my dream. Forget all the other dreams that I yearned for from way before. This has been my prayers from the time Jea came in to my life in this situation. I prayed for that for years before I sleep, on our trip to Antipolo Church, MAnaog Church and to every other church we went to.

But, I don’t know why, but I slowly let go. It feels as if I’ve exerted every effort I could, prayed to all the saints and churches. Somehow, im already contended of what we have. Going through that tantrums with Kristo made me see that Jea is ok. She’s not affected at all. I know, by now she already know about, “mommy” and “daddy”. She knows and feels that she is not the same with other kids, but she is ok. Not even coping up, its just the way it is. At least she doesn’t have to deal with, who’s house is she going home to. Or she doesn’t have to deal with her daddy’s girlfriend, or mommy’s boyfriend. She has me. The way I see it, she only needs me, nothing more and she will be happy.

Monday, July 21, 2008

My Kindergarten days (blog dedicated to Ate Simon)

I found an old friend in the net today. We were not really that close as we are at least 8 years apart.( Don’t really know her real age, can’t remember anymore) She’s not like the closest friends that stayed with me all this years, but she played a significant part in my life as a friend. This is our story.

I was about 6 years old then. I remember I was crying, sitting on the curb that morning. I know its not the first day of classes, but for no reason I decided to cry because my mama left. So the teacher let me sit there outside, crying my heart out. Thinking if I cry harder, mama will come back to get me. My not so developed but full of imagination mind was like that. I think I’m crying for an hour or so, when this teenage girl, with curly hair and full smile came to sit beside me. She asked me why I was crying, and I just said, “Mama! Mama!” She comforted me, Don’t know the exact words now, but most likely she said, “It’s ok, she’ll come back later, she loves you, she just have to go to the office”
Then she showed me, her fan. It’s an “abaniko” (dried leaves weaved together to form a fan) with her name stitched on it. It says, ‘Simonette” her whole name. She introduced herself to me and said I can call her Ate Simon. I don’t know if I was fascinated with her fan, or she has such an angelic face that I stopped crying.

From then on we became friends. Honestly, I don’t remember anything else about our “friendship” after that. The only other instance that I remember is that she lives in the same street as we do, “Prudencio” about 50 meters from our house. I also remember that me and my parents went to her debut party, and our gift to her was a shoulder bag. That my father saw her, on his trip to Japan about 10 years ago. Cant remember anything else.

If I’m going to count the years that I’ve known her, its already 20 years. Not so much of memories, basically because of the age difference. How would you imagine a 6 year old hanging out with a 15 years old. Very few moments together, but I could say that its really significant, It’s been 20 years, but I still remember exactly how we met. If I’m going to analyze it further I could say that, that moment made me stronger, made me not afraid of school, or whatever it is that I’m afraid of. That moment, also made me realize, that it’s ok if your mom leaves you in school. Eventually you’ll find friends that will make you stop crying. So to “Ate Simon” this blog is dedicated to you! Thank you for being there.

As for my little girl Jea, I now understand you more. That even if there is no good reason to cry, you will still cry, simply because you want your mommy beside you. Finding ate Simon, and remembering how we met, made me realize that, that’s just how kids react. When you’re young, in a new environment, missing your mom. This makes me realize, that I should be more patient and more understanding when Jea cries, because once upon a time I was just like her, crying my heart out, sitting on a curb, outside the classroom. Alone, afraid, and simply sad… I just wish you find your “Ate Simon”. In your case, this maybe your teachers, but somehow its different because if they do that, its because its their job too. I know you fill find her, or him, Maybe when you’re 6 years old, or 26 years old. You’ll find that not so close friend, but nevertheless, very significant friend.

Thursday, July 17, 2008

Phone Pal


Last weekend, I asked Jea to dial the number of Nang Nang Pau, just for me to see if she already know the number, if she can already identify and read numbers. She pushed the buttons as I dictate it to her 4-0-0-8-0-x-x. And she did fine, for me I'm already proud that I know that she can read numbers already. Tuesday, when I went home, Tsang told me that Jea was talking to somebody on
the phone that morning. She dialed the number then talked to somebody named "Pinky". So I thought, she just dialled some numbers and it just so happened that she reached somebody named Pinky, who actually talked to her. Its funny, if you think about it. If you'll get a "wrong number" caller who has a soft and cute voice, that ask about anything and everything, not knowing who she is, but certain that she is just a kid playing with the telephone.

The next day wednesday, Tsang told me again that Jea was talking to the same girl 3x the whole day. So I thought Jea is just making it up, that "Pinky" is just an imaginary friend on the telephone. But this is the surprise. Pau actually called the house asking Tsang about the phone calls, apparently Jea was actually calling their house. I asked Jea to dial their number twice, just to see if she can read the numbers. Looks like I under estimated her powers again. She didnt just know which number is which but she actually memorized Nang nang Pau's telephone number. Pinky? Pinky is actually "jinky",Pau's house help. She has been calling their house and talking to Jinky, asking silly questions. They became phone pals... really funny, amusing, but at the same time.. Im so proud that she again, exceeded my expectations.

How Nang-nang found out? She actually answered the phone herself. This was their conversation:

Pau: Hello?
Jea: Hello?
Pau: Sino to?
Jea: Sino ka?
Pau: Nang-nang (she already recognized Jea's voice, but she still thinks that Tsang was the one who dialed the phone)
Jea: San si Pinky?
Pau: Sinong Pinky?
Jea: Yung katulong mo?
Pau: LOL


I didnt get the rest of the conversation.. I'll ask Pau about it this afternoon.. I'll just continue this next time..


Wednesday, July 16, 2008

Litratong Pinoy #9 Luntian


kuha ng mahal na birhen ng MAnaog, na nababalutan ng luntian kapaligiran

Scary Prophecy... Earthquake in the Philippines on friday July 18

Uncanny Prophesy: What will happen to the world and to the Philippines at 2008



Mr. Juseleeno Nobulega DaRoose is Brazilian, born in 1960, 47 years old now, his occupation is a teacher, he is a normal citizen, having a very poor life with his wife and kids. All the events which Mr. Juselleno predicted had clear indication of the year, month date of the disasters, incase any third party wants to confirm the facticity of his prophesy, Mr. Juselleno always put the story which he predicted to the notarization office or post office for the approval.



Somebody asked him, how old did he start the prophesy dream, he answered: 9 years old, from 1969, he dreamed 3 events a day, sometimes 9 events, the times he dreamed is different every day. He said all the prophesy dreams were automatically in his dream. When Mr. Juseleeno was 19 years old, he met the famous Brazilian prophesy Saint Mr. Franciscoshabiz, after that the worldwide disaster events were increased in his prophesy dream. Mr. Franciscoshabiz was two times the candidate for the Nobel Prize, he is a very famous differential functional person, at the same time he is also the Charitarian. The events which Mr. Juseleeno predicted are already more than 80000, firstly let’s look at below a few big worldwide events and huge disaster from his prophesy.

this is sent by my brother in the email.. i really hope this doesnt happen



July 18, 2008 - Philippines will get 8.1 earthquake, thousands of people will die.



PLS. LET US BE ALERT AND MARK THIS DATE JULY 18, 2008, FRIDAY. LET’S BE PREPARED,

AND



LET US ALL PRAY THAT THIS WILL NOT HAPPEN TO US.



IF POSSIBLE: PLS. DON’T GO TO WORK ESPECIALLY THOSE WITH OFFICE LOCATED IN HIGH PLACES, BUILDINGS, CONDOS AND MALLS.



NOTHING TO LOSE IN THIS KIND OF REMINDER. MAYBE, THIS IS GOD’S WAY TO SAVE YOU, YOUR FAMILY , YOUR FRIENDS AND YOUR OFFICEMATES OR LESSEN CASUALTIES.



LET’S ALL PRAY AND MARK THIS DATE.



PLS. FORWARD TO ALL YOUR CONTACT LIST TO WARN YOUR RELATIVES, FRIENDS AND YOUR LOVED ONES AND ALL PEOPLE LIVING IN THE PHILIPPINES .



AGAIN: REMEMBER JULY 18, 2008 – HAVE AN ALARM ON THIS DATE.



IF YOU WANT TO READ MORE….

  

◎ Princess Diana was assassinated;

Mr. Juseleeno sent a warning letter to Diana via post office on 4th March,1997 “ I got the message from the God that someone is planning to kill you in the car accident, your life will be dangerous, 7 angels told me about this. You may die in this car accident and the specialist may close this case as a driving mistake, but they are totally wrong. The murder is close to you…. And it will happen before 2000”

Juseleeno also send this warning letter to the time, Darlytelegraph and Guardian etc. new agents in England , but never published. The car accident was happened on 31st August,1997, 5 month after the warning letter was sent out. Just as the prophesy said that the case was closed as driving mistake. The accuracy of this prophesy is not only to predict the huge event but also the truth of the intrigue behind the event. There are a lot of rumors after the accident, Diana was killed by the England royal family centered by queen Elizabeth.



The prophesy said it will happen before 2000, though there isn’t exact date on, but this prophesy was sent to the president(FernandoH enriqueSilvaCard oso) of Brazil 2 years before the accident and mentioned about “from 1997 to 98 that Diana will die” etc.

◎ The second attack of World Trade Center , it is 911

Jeseleeno sent the warning letter to the president of USA in 1989, the warning letter had also published at a notarization office which run by Mr. Klicheeba in the town of Palana . This warning letter also predicted that the World Trade Center will get the first attack in 1993, though there was no exact date on but the second attack was clearly told 11th September,2001. Everyone knew the result, the first attack was happened on 26th Feb.1993 three and half year after the warning letter sent out, the parking place was blow up and many people injured, the second attack was happened on 11th Sept.2001, 13 years after the warning letter sent out, it is the 911.



The exclamatory thing is, this prophesy also told about Afghanistan and Iraq war will start after 911, after Iraq lost, the president Haisan will run to Adawr the middle of Iraq etc. are all in the letter, like you all know, the events in the prediction letter were happened one by one.





◎ Sumatra Indonesia earthquake

Juseleeno sent the warning letter about Indonesia Sumatra Earthquake to the India Embassy on 16th September, 1996, about 8 years before the disaster. This warning letter predicted that there will be 8.9 earthquake in Aceh Indonesia in the morning of 26th December,2004. India and Indonesia will be attacked by the tsunami. He sent the warning letter to the president of Indonesia on 30th April, 1997, the letter is about “ I dreamed that 7:00am 26th Dec, 2004, South Asia will be attacked by 8.9 earthquake, at the same time will get the tsunami, the area will be Aceh Indonesia, India, Malaysia, Sri Lanka, Thailand, Maladiv, Bombay. And many people will be dead……

The result is- the earthquake was happened at 07:58am 26th Dec. More than 200000 people dead, the biggest tsunami was about 30 meters, a lot people were dead by the tsunami. He also sent the same letter to Indonesia , Philippine, Thailand and other Embassies. He also got the thanks letter from these countries.



The thanks letter from Meigawadi said “ about the 2004 earthquake and tsunami, to prevent the disaster, we must do a lot of things, but in another hand, we can do nothing”. The thanks letter from Indonesia Embassy said “…..we will send this letter to our government, if you have any update information, please let us know”.



From above information, Juseleeno already predicted that there will be more than 200000 people die in the tsunami and earthquake 8 years before the disaster, he sent the warning letter with detail date on to these countries, but nobody did any preventive measures.



The writer pick up a few events which Juseleeno predicted for the future.



2007

Tornado attacked Brazil , thousands people dead.

2007 or July of 2008 Japan will get earthquake and get 30 meters tsunami.

Japan will get earthquake and typhoon in October, He predicted that the huge typhoon will happen on 26th October in the warning Letter

USA will get the terror attack on 17th December.



2008

Will find the medicine for AIDS and Dengue

18th July, Philippine will get 8.1 earthquake, thousands people will die

The Empire State Building New York will get terror attack in September.

13th of September, China will get 9.1 earthquake in Nanning and Hainan, at the same time will get 30 meters Tsunami, millions people will die, the tsunami may go to Japan Directly.



2009

25th January. 8.9 earthquake will attacked Japan , Hundred thousands people will die.

November, Japan will get earthquake again. Thousands people will die.

Brazilian government can not pay the insurance because of the finance problems. Will get the riot.

24th August, Istanbul Turkey will get 8.9 earthquake. The road will be parted.

16th December, Sumatra Indonesia will get 7.8 earthquake. Thousands people will die.



2010

The temperature will reach 58 degrees in many countries of Africa , at the same time will lack of water.

15th June, the New York stock market will be

The temperature in Africa will reach 58 degrees, it is unbelievable number, but in May 2007, people who travel around Africa said the temperature in Greece and Turkey are already 39-40 degrees, Iraq and Arabia is about 45-46 degrees, it is possible to happen in the summer but not in may, we can imagine that in the summer of 2010, the world will become warmer and Africa will get the high temperature.



2011

Will found the treatment for Cancer. But another new cancer will occur.

A serious disease will occur, it will be called ALS, People will die after 4 hours get ALS

Bird flu H5N1 will infect to human, 7300000 people will die till 2013.

Mr.Juseleeno’ s prophesy is not only for the disease and earthquake but also for the exact name. For example the formal US president Gore famous book “ An Inconvenient Truth”. The name of tornado which will attack Brazil, and thousands people will die, the name of infectious disease ( ALS), the name for San Francisco’s earthquake ( the Big One) and etc. events.
◎2012年

2012
The area of glebe will be extended regarding the aridity and become desert, from 2015 till 2020, the trees will disappear in Amazon.
From 6th Dec. the sky will start the black cloud time, it is called weather cloudy.
Human start die because of the infectious disease’s overspread.
2013
Find the treatment for cancel except the brain cancel.
Bahamas of West Indies, from 1st Nov. till 25th the Volcano will break out and bring the earthquake too, after that will be 150 meters huge tsunami, about 80 meters tsunami will go to Caribbean, About 15 kilometer to 20 kilometer to USA , Brazil and other countries. The sea will go down 6 meters before the tsunami and the birds will move away too.
Mr.Juseleeno predicted that when the cats and dogs know the disaster is coming, they want to get away from the venue, they will have strange behaviors 24 hours before the disaster, so we can use that for the standard of judgement.
2014
The small planet will be closer to the earth and may knock together, the exist of this small planet will influent the issue of human live.
2015
In November, the average temperature will reach 59 degrees, many people will die, the world confusion will be bigger.
2016
In the middle of April, huge typhoon will attach some cities of China , about one thousand people will die.
The US president Bush will be in the hospital suddenly, has serious sickness.
2018
About the issue of small planet will be closer to the earth, the leaders of each country will gather together to discuss the countermeasure, Mr. Juseleeno already predicted in 2000, and informed the NASA of USA about the exist of the small planet. On 31st June,2002, NASA confirmed and called this small planet 2002ZNT7」。
2019
May find out the science power solution, if the small planet knock together, 1/3 population of the world will die. Mr. Juseleeno predicted that the percentage for the small planet knock the earth will be 60% .
In June, the east sea of Japan will get the Tsunami, bigger then the Indonesia tsunami.
◎2025年

2025
Astronomer will find new planet, it may knock the earth again, the possibility will be 80%.
◎2026年

2026
In July, San Francisco will get huge earthquake, it is called “ the big one”, San Andreas Fault will be destroyed, California will disappear, a lot of crater will start again, the tsunami will be more than 150 meters.
◎2043年

2043
The world population reduced, about 80% people dead in the disaster.
Will 2008 Beijing Olympic Game be held smoothly?

As above said, in 2008, China will get 9.1 earthquake and more than millions people will die, according to Mr. Juseleeno’s prediction that the earth quake will be 13th September,2008, and Olympic will hold on 8th August-24th, In this schedule, the earthquake will happen after Olympic, but before the big earthquake, there will be a lot of small earthquake, it will make the country and people upset.
There will be a lot of small earthquake before the big one, although Juseleeno didn’t predict the exact date, but if we presume the small earthquake will happen one or two month before and it may be the period of Olympic, if so it may make the host and athletes give up. When the writer read this prophesy from Juseleeno, he suddenly remember the space time traveler John Titoer’s last word “ 2004 Athens Olympic Game will be last one”

But, if the earthquake is in the south of China , Nanning and Hai Nan, and there are no Olympic games, the Beijing Olympic Game will close successfully. But the problem is that China government is only care about the reputation and successfully of the Olympic game, ignore the small earthquakes, and no preparation before the big one. China may control the report, closed all the news . If so there will be a big disaster as the prophesy said. In Mr. Juseleeno’s warning letter said “ if there is no preparation to protect the citizens, will get huge loss’

Mr. Juseleeno also predicted that glacier period is coming.

He also has the right prophesy for the weather, one of them is, in 2003, Europe got high temperature, 29th October, 2001, the warning letter said “ the nature world will beat back to the world, the temperature of France, Germany and Portugal will become higher, more than ten thousand people will die, this disaster will happen between 2003 and 2004” . the truth is, the temperature in the summer of 2003 had reached the highest one which they’ve never had in Europe, about 35.000 people dead, especially France and Germany , about 14,000 people dead in France and 7000 people dead in Germany .


From Mr.Juseleeno’ s prophesy, the earth temperature will get higher every year, till 2012, the temperature in Africa will reach 58 degrees and the same time will have serious water problem, after the temperature will be even higher, till 2015, the average temperature of earth will reach 59 degrees, a lot of people will die, the human will get frighten all over the world. If this is the truth, the countries will against each other because of the aridity and not enough food, Mr. Jeseleeno also predicted that there will be some new wars because of the aridity, but he didn’t have clear prophesy, but he felt it won’t be the normal war.

Anyway, the temperature is getting higher is not like the aerography said ( the speed is very slow), actually very quick. However the warmness seems not always incessancy, after the high temperature, a big part of ice of Greenland and South Pole will be dissolved and go to the sea, the circulation of the sea will be lower and become colder, it means a new glacier time. In Juseleeno’s prophesy seems also said after 2027, there will be a new glacier. Details of the prophesy as below:
The volcano of America yellow park will break out, the smoke and magma will go 1,600 kilometer far, Kansas , Nebraska , Montana will all get damaged. The break out of the volcano is not only in Yellow park, but also some other place in the world. these smoke will blot out the sun, the circulation of see will stagnate and active the cold phenomena.



Eir and kol got Nobel award
As we all know, the formal president Gore dedicate on study of earth temperature, his famous book “ An Inconvenient Truth” was made to a movie and also get the Oscar award. Actually 19 years ago, Mr. Juseleeno already predicted about this, the phophesy had been published on Moon Magazine in June, in the end of may, before the publish, the editor told the writer about this, I really got surprised for a while..

According the letter which Juseleeno sent to Gore, this prophesy letter already inform Gore that from 1993 to 2001 he won’t be the vice president anymore, he will dedicate on protect the world environment activities, and he will write a book “An Inconvenient Truth” to become famous, the English letter Juseleeno wrote to Gore also told the books name and he will get the 2007 Nobel award, we will know this autumn, Let’s looking forward for the prophesy for Mr. Gorel. We can’t deny Mr. Juseleeno’s prophesy.

There are not much time for Human, from December 2007, the Black Cloud will extend all over the world, as Mr. Juseleeno predicted that if the human still keep the actuality, human will have terrible life from 2008 till 2012 , the black cloud will full of the sky before the disaster. If we want the disaster, and war stay away from us, the deadline for human is the end of 2007. Mr. Juseleeno expected the world consciousness will change in the end of 2007.

The situation is very serious now, if we still want to depend on other’s power, Mr. Juseleeno’s prophesy “ the black future” will happen. We must understand the serious situation, individual to individual, group to group, country to county, hold you own responsibility, take action, because the deadline will come soon.

Inability and tiny ability is totally different, inability is no matter whatever we do, it won’t help. But tiny ability mean more people contribute and the power will become strong. We have do start from ourselves, one people’s power is small but if we put everyone’s power together, It will be strong to change the future disaster.